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Les

Ya
Maybe you are correct
I will be a lesbian in my future
But so what?
You won't care if you really love me
that's all

girl

Oh shit!
I think I like girl
......

I'm wrong?

I'm tiring
really tiring
with all my relationship sometimes
I want to help all of my friends
But everyone will just blame you when you can't did it
or you did not good enough
I'm wondering is that I wrong cause I just want to help you guys?
Sign...
Seriously I don't know
Or maybe I'm just a useless people to help nothing
and I'm the person who always easily forget by others

Outing with mum

My lovely mammy went to KL few days ago
I miss her so much cause I'm always lonely at home
I need someone understand me
to listen to my voice
Tired for facing computer all the time
I'm so surprise when I saw my mum hanging my clothes when I'm back from College
Then I straight away told my mum
"come on, we go Luk Card"
XDD yeah shopping


I went to Barsheer to get the books I want
But soooooooo unlucky
SOLD OUT
aiks..so sad..I love it and wanted buy for such a long time
But I got no money to get it
My mummy laugh at me and said
"You see..you bring banker but the book sold out!"
So I just simply get 2 cheap Territory
although is cheap but still got a lot of nice illustration inside
At least I get some books for reference

After that we went to my favorite shop DAISO!
Mummy get a lot of stuff from there
and she get a piece of fabric for me
Don't ask me why
I just love fabric
especially POLKA-DOT


First time get such a long dress
But seriously I not dare to wear it now
cause it's look super weird with my hair style

another pant

and both of them just cost me RM50
RM25 for each
Damn cheap!
Good quality some more
There still got nice thing in Sungei Wang
Just need more time to discover it


I choose a cadigan and singlet for my mum too
So she got new clothes for clubbing XD

我到底怎么了？

在经历过分手后一段悲痛欲绝的日子后

现在的我竟冷静得很诡异

这种诡异得不寻常的感觉

不应该发生在我身上

不存在着过份的情绪波动

没有着太多华而不实的幻想

看见生活上戴着面具的行走生物

也只有无奈可以与我的心情挂钩

就算觉得被别人利用

我也用善意的行动让着他们

我到底怎么了？

那个热血为事情打抱不平的我去了哪里？

但庆幸的是如今的我不再视一切为理所当然

在思维上也有了更深一层的思想态度

但在某的时候

心灵却被时空隧道抽入童年时光般

可以为了别人为我做的一些小事

如给我一块可口的曲奇饼干

又或者一次的顺风车

我都可以感动甚久

这意味着什么？

长大了吗？

还是受伤后自我逃避所出现的违反性行为？

我搞不懂自己到底怎么了

到底是我们把事情复杂化

还是周遭环境避使事情复杂化人类的思想？

我真的不知道我到底怎么了！

Future Plan

Is 5.1 this term
5.1 !!! 5.1 !!! 5.1!!!
OMG I going to graduate soon
HahaXD
My graduation show will be in April
Is too fast!
I havent get prepare for my future and career
Time past so fast
I still got no confident with myself and my skills
Awww!!
But anyway I got some plan for myself
Aussie? New Zealand? Singapore? UK?
There will be around few months time before I go overseas
I decided to go China dunno which place(papa know it)to learn basic drawing skills
Like sketching , painting and whatever that I needed
If there are still left some times
Working and Travel in New Zealand plan should be work


Let's think about life in New Zealand
Work as a gardener who plucking fruits at the farm
Rent or buy a second hand car travel around New Zealand
Picnic beside the Lake
Be friend with the Maori
Eating Fish and Chip as my dinner
Feeding those cows and sheeps
and other more....

I cant wait to go there man!!!
Hope that I can make it
But who want to go with me?
Going alone? I scare XDD
Before that money will be the first problem for me
My savings target is 10k
Gam-ba-teh Pang Yijing
I should borrow the spirit from Lomography
"Don't Think, Just Go"
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooopssss